My-Story

A little over a year ago, at our twin daughters' 1 year b-day party, my husband's best friend, who happened to be the Godfather to our daughters AND husband of the woman my husband had been having a full-blown affair with, called me and read me a LONG list of e-mails to and from my husband and his wife - who was also our daughters' Godmother and my best friend. The writing on the wall that my husband was having an affair with my best friend. The passed year has been VERY difficult. I vowed TO GOD to forgive him just this ONCE - and he's been doing his best to make me believe it won't EVER happen again as he claims he wouldn't be able to live without me, but the trust is broken and so is my heart. Some days we're GREAT, but then there's days like today when I can do nothing but think of things they did together (physically, sexually, mentally). I don't WANT to torture myself, but sometimes I just can't stop the thoughts - that ultimately turn to pain and anger. Will I EVER be able to FULLY be over this? I feel like we're SO close, but always seems like we'll never get there.

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