Getting Healthy

John Paul Catanzaro, B.Sc., C.K., P.F.L.C., is a certified kinesiologist and professional fitness and lifestyle consultant with a specialized honors Bachelor of Science degree in Kinesiology and Health Science. His website is www.BodyEssence.ca.

I found my one true love 14 years ago. But by the 1st year, I caught him cyber-sexing. We argued but moved on. This man was always eyeballing other women. But I was so beautiful and couldn't figure out what to do. I would get mad, cry, talk but his behavior continued. He always gave me hugs, kisses, and made beautiful love to me. But always sneaking with my friends and making nasty comments about other women. I just shrugged it off and let it be him. Then 6 mos. ago, he started putting me down, talking of having other women for himself and me. No way! He took the cell phone everywhere and came home late. I asked him about the number stored on cell and he said it was his friend from work. Things became intense here, I could feel a storm coming on. We talked of separating and saw a marriage counselor twice. He told the counselor he wasn't sure of our marriage. Then 1-week later, I came home from work and he took every thing he owned. I called him and he said, "Give me a month". I called over and over begging for a solid answer and was told, "It's over." I collapsed with pain and hurt. He took our 12 yr. old son and said I may see him or not. I grabbed an attorney and she said he found someone else. I still didn't believe it!!! He took all the money and would call me with” Do you miss me" "I want to see you". I saw my son 2 days ago. And he says, "Dad has a new, rich girlfriend" That hurt so bad. I had instincts but didn't want to hear it from our son. I pick myself up and think "what an idiot" and in 1 hour I'm crying like a hurt little girl. Like I said I'm a beautiful woman and always turned away men's advances. I was a faithful, good wife. I can't sleep or eat and can't pull myself up. I am insane for not getting away from this sooner and insane for still hurting. I’m scared of being with anyone and afraid I'll never find anyone. I wouldn't wish this on him. (My worst enemy.) My only support is my happily married friends and family with their children. There's my 61 yr. old Mom who's been single for 30 years anyways. Thank you and good luck.

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