Of course he tries to downplay everything she told me. He even told me that only reason he slept with her the last time was because she was blackmailing him. I have to admit that that’s a new one. Apparently she was going to therapy and she decided to help her “therapy” along that she needed to confess what she had done to me. She tells my husband what she is planning and asks to see him. This is when he tells me that she said that if he slept with her one more time that she wouldn’t tell me. (Yeah, I know. I don’t believe it either.) Then the next day she tells him that she’s still going to tell me and she mentions that she needs money. My husband agrees to pay her a thousand dollars not to tell me. Well, he paid her and she told me anyway.

I feel trapped. It doesn’t seem like there are a whole lot of options out there for a woman that is eight months pregnant and has been out of the workforce for almost five years to be a stay-at-home-mom. Hum. He seems like he’s sorry. He seems like he wants to work things out. I don’t know. I feel that my husband cheating me while I’m pregnant says a whole lot. I think I’m done. God knows that I don’t want my kids to come from a broken family but how much can one person take?

We do end up going to see a counselor. My husband tells him that he’s to blame for everything that I’ve done nothing wrong. It’s actually true. You know how you always hear that both parties are usually to blame for something but every since my husband walked back in our door I have done everything in my power to make sure he was happy and to fix our marriage. I guess that was my mistake. It seems like he likes bitches.

What freaken kills me is that this woman is seven years older than me. Seriously, what’s the deal with the older woman? Aren’t men supposed to go for the younger ones? To top it off; she was married and had two kids. She divorced that guy and married some another guy that was wanted her and her two kids. I guess that wasn’t good enough for her either because she divorced that guy too. Oh, and we can’t forget the guy that she cheated on with my husband. They were together six years. Her kids are older. Her oldest daughter is in her twenties and her son is a teenager that she didn’t want living in her house anymore so she shipped him off to her ex’s. Wow!!! Doesn’t this sound like a woman of great character? You have got to be freaken kidding me! It’s obvious that this woman is extremely selfish and doesn’t care about anyone other than herself. I think I’m going to go throw up now.

I tell the counselor that I want to have a meeting with my husband and the OW. I feel if the three of us could get together I would know for sure if my husband were sincere. I would be able to tell by their body language. I need this. I need to be able to heal and move on but I have to know that she’s out of the picture. My husband agrees to this.

Well, I put my cell phone on speaker and called the OW. It was a very enlightening conversation. The woman that was begging for my forgiveness was now gone. This “new and improved” woman told me that she loved my husband and she wanted to be with him however, she wasn’t going to share him with me anymore. (Apparently it broke her little heart when he came home to me every night.) She either wants all of him or nothing at all. However, she is willing to wait for him to leave me. WTF! Are you freaken kidding me! She goes on to tell me that she’ll always be his friend and she’ll be there for him whenever she needs him. I told her that was unacceptable to do that while we are married and she told me that my husband is not a piece of furniture and that I don’t own him. OMG! I have never wanted to physically hurt someone so bad in all my life. This conversation totally didn’t go the way I expected it. She better pray that I never see her again.

I feel worse now. It was one thing when I had someone begging for my forgiveness and tells me that she wants nothing to do with my husband to this. I'm seriously going to throw up now.